as if you didn't know...

I don't know about you, but first thing I wake up every morning
look in the mirror say to myself is...

I am going to die
And I've come to terms with that
But the when, where, and how's where the concern is at
It's fucked up that I'll be dead when I've learned all of that
Fact is we mustn't fear it
For fear is the mind killer

this is from one of my favorite cds and artist. it's just... real. and in august he is going to be at the hip hop concert to end all.



ok... the picture has nothing to do with anything. but did you see those tits? GOD DAMN!

enjoy.

Murs - Varsity Blues

the average homeboy.

man it's been a while...

"ibn, where you been?"

if i said i was busy, i'd be lying. i'm just a lazy ass mofo. i've been reading a book but i haven't pick it up in days, which is sad because i could finish in a day.

"what you got for us?"

what do i have? none other than the "average homeboy" denny blazin hazen.

i love this dude. the best rapper i've heard in the longest time. he's not fake. he raps about what he knows... the mean streets of malibu or some shit like that. i wish he put out a cd but we weren't lucky enough for that. but he does have 8 videos he has graced us with. enjoy.

"wait! you haven't written in weeks and you don't give us any music?"

yep.

"fuck yo couch nigga!"


Denny Blazin Hazen - Hey Bone Lady (The Making Of)

Denny Blazin Hazen - I'm The Blaze

Denny Blazin Hazen - Popularity

Denny Blazin Hazen - Tropical Getaway

Denny Blazin Hazen - Average Homeboy (Original)

Denny Blazin Hazen - Average Homeboy (Polished)

Denny Blazin Hazen - Blazin Hazen (Original)

Denny Blazin Hazen - Blazin Hazen Demo (Polished)

hmmmm... i love those saturdays.

now it is saturday morning and i am done with school. yay.

and what better what to celebrate than some cartoons. yeah, yeah, yeah. i know they are not what they used to be but there are some diamonds in the rough out there. really can not name them off the top of my head but i know they are out there. but one that comes to mind is the "backyardigans." yes, i know it is made for kindergartners but there is something hypnotic about their harmoniousness. they sing songs and so on adventures in their backyards. reminds me of the imaginations of "the rugrats." plus that theme song is the shit.

give me some classic like g.i. joe or the transformers any day. or even some captain planet, "he's our hero." and doug! oh i miss doug. those were the days when you could watch cartoons for hours straight on a saturday in front of the tele and not see a bad one.

so get high, make some pancakes and bacon, pour a glass of gin and oj, and relax. and join me for some saturday cartoons.




enjoy these classics.

Inspector Gadget
Gadgets in Winterland
Monster Lake

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles [Original Series]
The Big Blow Out
The Maltease Hamster
Turtle Tracks
Get Shedder

Doug
Beet War & Magic Act
Comic Collaboration & Pet Capade
Pumps Up & Goes To Hollywood
Fair Lady & Says Goodbye

Duck Tales
Top Duck
Duckman of AquaTraz

Snorks
Snorkdance

David The Gnome
Good Medicine
Witch Way Out
David To The Rescue

am i a black man?

"you're a white-black guy."

this all started awhile ago. someone told me that. at first i blow it off because i didn't know the person that well. months later when they brought it up again, i got deeply offened. and after some time to think about this i have questions and have been thrown in a loop.

i have never considered myself black. it may be from where i grow up... or from how my parents raised me... or my lack of cultural awareness. whatever the reason my heiritage has never been a huge part of my life. mostly because my heiritage has been a mystery to myself. as an africian american, there is a lot that i do not know about myself and from where i come from. i have hard feelings about this... espically when others bring up their own heiritage. just because i don't understand these things, does that mean i should turn my back on my community? in so few words... yes. but what is my community? the niggers on the corner selling dope to their own people, keeping ourselves where we are trying so hard to get away from? the view that mainstream rap gives to us... that we need to carry around guns, sell drugs or being great at sports to succeed? the people walking around in "african" clothes representing something they have little to no knowledge about? i refuse.

i am a black man... yet i am so much more than that. just because my parents had and i did not grow up struggling, i am viewed as a less than that by most other blacks and whites. i am viewed as an "uncle tom" or a "white-black man." who are you to judge me when you know nothing about me? i hate you. but i know i will be nothing more to you no matter what i achieve in my life.

i am not a intelligent man, nor have i ever claimed to be. but i know me, i know who i am. i do not considered myself black or white. i do not consider myself rich nor poor. i am ethan. if you dont understand that then i do not care for you or about you. i have a lot of hatered in my mind, i have a lot of sorrow in my soul and i have a lot of love in my heart. no one truly knows what i have been through, nor do i want you to. people are always ask me how i'm doing... my usual response is content. life is life. there is nothing i can do about anything. one day i will die. and when you're standing over my casket will you view me as a black man beaten down by "societies plague on our culture," as a black man who turned his back on our culture and became "white", or as just ethan?

“Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.”
Dr. Seuss.

this blog was brought to you by:
her...
and the movies:
Crash
Bambozzeled
American History X

here's some music for you to think about.

Dead Prez - Lets Get Free

Outkast(Andre 3000) - The Love Below

Mos Def - Black On Both Sides

Heiroglyphics - Full Circle

Rakim - The Master

Seu Jorge - The Life Aquatic Sessions

oh, ten minute song...

i hate you.

you suck.

you good for the first 3 or so minutes. then you either go blank... or there is just the instrumental... or you change the song completely. why cant you just stop and create a new track? do you really think it's more artistic? it's not. it just makes me click to the next song. i haven't meet one of you that i've like. hip hop soul, jazz, r&b... nothing, it doesn't matter what type of genre you are. you're just too long. i like chicken... see my ADD doesn't even let me concentrate on a blogging long enough.

boobies.




but for you who do like the 10 minute song...
Qwel (14:50)
Soul Position - 1 Love (12:43)
Jedi Mind Tricks - Before The Great Collapse (17:39)
Illogic - I Wish He Would Make Me (10:21)
The Roots - Return To Innocense Lost (11:55)

i stand corrected... as i dance around in underwear i found i ten minute song i love.
OneMillionTinyTinyJesuses (10:45)

a little something, something for da funk...
De La Soul - 3 Feet High And Rising
De La Soul - Grind Date
De La Soul - De La Soul Is Dead
Qwel - If It Ain't Been In A Pawnshop Then It Can't Play The Blues
Qwel - Close But No Cigar

my requests...
track listing for OneMillionTinyTinyJesuses "Commit To Nothing"
any OneMillionTinyTinyJesuses albums.

meet my future ex-wife...

meet the future former mrs. bulluck.

ha. i love to entertain myself.

on a more serious note... i love to have sex while listening to music. why? i don't know... maybe it helps me to get my groove on. but we all know i don't need any help with that. is it that smooth rhythm it helps you? or that thumping bass that helps you... well... thump. maybe, just maybe... nah, nevermind. whatever it is me and my love for hip extends in the bedroom. even if the lady doesn't like hip hop by the end of the night she's loving it. i'm not saying all cds are that way but there are a select few where it's like, "you do that? i didn't know that." fellas, you need to learn to about john mayer. that is one soulful white dude. and he is a panty dropper in every sense of the word. that 3rd date not going the way you want to and you're thinking the bedroom and she's thinking about a romance novel and her "lightsaber." guys, put on some john mayer and watch those panties hit the ground... if you time it'll be about 2.4 seconds. i don't know what it is about that man but ladies love him. no matter age, race, kids, marriage, he gets those panties off and you into some lovin'. music and sex equals magic. like that disney type of magic.

and unlike hip hop i prefer tits over ass.

and to the future former mrs. bulluck... i still love you... even if you're going to take half my stuff one day.

i got the lupe fiasco "kick push" that is the song on on myspace right now. so get your kick push on. "dark skinned white girls" is like my anthem to the girl i want... the girl i need. the soulfulness of al green with the smooth voice of mos def equals "the panties"... which is a panty dropper. and everyone needs to get loveage... EVERYONE. is this doesn't get you laid... i don't know what will.

the singles...
Lupe Fiasco - Kick Push
Murs - Dark Skinned White Girls
Mos Def - The Panties
RJD2 - Bus Stop Bitties
RJD2 - To All Of You

some music to make love to your lady by...
Loveage - Music To Make Love To Your Old Lady By
Corinne Bailey Rae - Corrine Bailey Rae
Lauryn Hill - Unplugged 2.0 disc 1
Lauryn Hill - Unplugged 2.0 disc 2

John Mayer Discography
John Mayer - Any Given Thursday
John Mayer - Heavier Things
John Mayer - Room For Squares
John Mayer - Try! John Mayer Trio Live

i am a hip hop backpacker...

my favorite sayings are..

"Thats not real hip hop."
"I never watch MTV or BET or listen to the radio."
"I miss the good old days of hip hop, circa 1994."

for you people who aren't up on the lastest hip hop culture and the inner workings of the culture. definition of a backpacker.

i'm not saying i don't like what's on the radio, just that people think that's what hip hop is. and YOUR WRONG! corny ass beats with snaps and dudes talking about how much money they have, how many hoes they're going to fuck, and i used to sell crack on the block. half of these dudes didn't even do that shit. i'd rather hear real talk. tell me about improving the culture... smoking some weed and chilling with your boys... tell me a funny story. what every happened to the days of slick rick and story telling, and not about the "trap."

i love my messneger bad and i'll rock that shit til i die.

here's some old school and new school backpacker ish to pump in your ghettoblasters...

a tribe called quest - people's instinctive travels and the paths of rhythm
rakim - the 18th letter
pete rock and c.l. smooth - the mecca and the soul brother
murs - murray's revenge
souls of mischief - 93' til infinity
gift of gab - 4th dimensional rocketships going up